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Monday, March 1, 2010
Well where to start. Ohkay let me continue my story about Mr. A. At last he told me why we just can’t be together. Me: Can I ask you something? You slalu ke uat benda mcm gini? I mean we are not really together and kite da uat benda mcm gini. Him: Tkde ah. When I’m bored. Actually I like to manje2 je. Tu sbb I suke sandar dkat u, cuddle2. Tu semer… Me: I don’t mind u nk manje2, cuddle2 tpi I think what both of us are doing, da overboard. And ya, I don’t want to continue like this forever, serious talking. Him: What are you trying to say? Me: You left me confused. I have been trying to find the answer, are we friends or more than that but you don’t know. I try to treat you fair like the others but I just can’t. I know I cannot force you to love me and be with me. It’s just hard to make you understand me and my feelings. Him: Kalau you got org lain go je. I don’t mind. Curiously, I tknk uat you tunggu mcm buah tk jatoh. Curiously, I pon awkward uat gini. You piker I tkde hati perot jgk ke? Haiy.. Let’s be straight forward, k.. I tkot go ngan u coz u I nye classmate. Nnt pape jdi kte tk kwn each other lagi. All tt sorts of thing. I tknk friendship putos.. Get wad I mean? So I pn ngah confuse. I tknk dis thing happen to me agy. I pernah kene once.. Im sry.. Me: Well I pon once attchd ngn my classmate and ya until now we are still contacting with each other. Well I cnot force u, if u tkot the same thing happen thn so be it ah, kite kwn je, but the things yg kite pernah uat, stop. Him: Hmm ok.. U.. R u angry? Haiy.. Please you.. Me: I also don’t know how i am feeling rite now. Jgn piker kn sgt la, kite kwn and that’s it. Don’t force yourself and I also don’t like to force ppl. Him: Hmm, ok. There you go peeps, end of the story. I was wondering why he didn’t tell me that at the first place. I think this is the third time I ask him. Well obviously, things are different right now. We are still close but not as close as before. If we are meant to be thn we will be together, one day in the future. I don't know why but I cried the night when the truth is out. Labels: Sometimes the truth does hurt Monday, February 8, 2010 To Farhan: I got a picture for you. I always wanted to send you but whenever I see your face I will forget about it. Firstly I want to apologize to you if I have hurt you in one way or another. Secondly I want to thank you for loving me, care for me and always be there for me. You have been such a wonderful partner that I ever had. You’re a guy that treasures me deep in your heart but I always hurt you. The laughter, the cries, the problems that we faced through, you were always there beside me. Words can’t express how thankful I am, to have you in my heart. I still remember that you once told me that you can’t live without me, you like being control because it makes you feel like a baby and ya I find it so cute. Whenever there is a full moon, you will message me, hoping that I am there beside you, enjoying the beautiful scenery together. A friend of ours once told me that they went drinking, you were there with them, but you didn’t consume them because you knew that I trust you so much, my love for you is so deep that you would not betrayed all of that. I knew all along that you are a type of guy that needs attention from someone, someone that can pamper you, someone that will always care and love you. And now I don’t know what would happen to you if I am not there to control you, would you be the same Farhan that I know for 1 year 5 months? Will you still keep the promises that you once make? Many things went through my mind. I hope there is no revenge between us. I will still need you in the future to come and I hope you will always be there for me. I will always support you from behind; encourage you to pursue your dream as a footballer. Don’t give up that easily, like you don’t want to give up on me. I hope this words of encouragement will make you realize that I will always love and care for you. Just want to let you know that fighting is NOT a way out of a problem... Babytini 250608-251109 PS: I got a picture for you but my computer was sort so I cannot upload it, sorry.. Labels: I'm all about you |
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